I’m a little out of practice with this whole, “putting my thoughts down via written word.” I have been for some time. I mean this in regards to writing things of substance, not about some dopey video game or some text post on Tumblr that gets a bizarrely high amount of notes. Let me give this a shot.
You’ve probably read my dream journal entries, about my subconscious inability to move on from the past. Lately, I’ve found myself, mostly inadvertently, attempting to relive those nostalgic memories in the real world as well. I’ve been listening to the same music, watching the same tv shows (in some cases, reruns, as some of these shows have been long since cancelled), eating the same food, and so on. Obviously, this is not a healthy or sane way to live, and I know that no matter what I do, the past will stay in the past; history will never repeat itself. But still, I just can’t seem to help myself, you know? I don’t know why this is happening. I’ve got my armchair theories, of course, but nothing I can pinpoint and yell “A-HA” at.
Certainly, at some point, this will end and everything will go back to normal. One could only hope.