Things have gotten better since my last post. You may have noticed a few changes on this blog’s sidebars and stuff. Specifically, my new name. Yes, I came out as trans last night. My name is Ramona Savage, and I am a woman (God Damn it still feels good to say that).
I mean, I’m still having shitty dysmorphic moments when I shave or look at my body (which is the reason why, whenever I took lewd selfies, I preferred to leave my shirt on: I didn’t have to look at it), but knowing that I’m not holding it in anymore, and that there are people who are supportive has helped out a lot.
I’ve been taking it slow. I tried on a woman’s tanktop today, and it just felt right to wear it. And it’s kind of dumb: it’s just a shirt, and I’ve been wearing women’s jeans for the past ten years, so wearing women’s clothes shouldn’t really be such a big deal, and yet I still thought it was really cool. It didn’t even fit, either! But whatever.
My big thing is dresses. I see all these pictures of lolita fashion, and I think it looks so cool. I don’t know if I could do that kind of look everyday; I’ve always been a “jeans and t-shirt” kind of person, but I want to wear a good ass dress at least once in my life.
Makeup will have to wait for another day. I’ve been watching YouTube tutorials, and it looks hella complicated. When I start putting that stuff on, I want to make sure I get it right the first time, you know?